Per·spi·cience
n.
[L. perspicientia, fr. perspiciens, p. p. of perspicere. See Perspective.]
The act of looking sharply. [Obs.] Bailey.

this probably has to do with the idea of when you look up at the skyline expecting to see familiar objects, or even in a certain place in your mind for a person’s presence, and just naturally expect that something or someone to be there, innocently, without a second thought, because through your whole life it, or they, have always been there, a part of you … and it’s just gone, or they’re gone, and you can’t quite reconcile that loss because you can’t quite imagine their non-existence, and you keep bumping into that spot, trying to find the thing that was once there, and can’t find it, and eventually have to accept that there is an unanswerable emptyness, or at least think of other things for a while. and that is my comprehension of death.

it is a human lack of comprehension, or limitation of human perception, of a concept or dimension that we don’t have a sense with which to perceive. or perhaps it is merely my own limitation.

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snow. in April. the view from my back yard.

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“Now I’m shot in the face.”

“Yeah, you are. It’s ok, you’re old.”

“Oh shit, I think some of of the buck shot is moving to my heart.”

“Oh, that’s nothing. I have more metal in my heart than Darth Vader. Stop being a bitch.”

Brittany, this is your fault. I could’ve done something meaningful with that hour. Here goes:

Your full name: Atom Louis DeSoto Ponce de Leon Branford Marsallis Jones-Smith III, Esq.
Height: 5’8 (I think)
Natural hair colour: dark brown -ish (I think)
Eye color: green (or “hazel”)
Number of siblings: 2
Glasses/contacts?: neither
Piercings: 4 (they may have closed though)
Tattoos: please
Braces?: never

FAVORITE
Color: green -ish
Band: The Tourist
Song: Bowie – Oh! You Pretty Things (had to pick one)
Stuffed animal: snoopy
Video game: Zelda, legend of
TV show: family guy
Movie: blade runner
Book: stranger in a strange land
Food: cookies!!
Game on a cell phone: chess
CD cover: anything by Dave McKean for Download or Skinny Puppy
Flower: Sunflower, tulip, Orchid
Animal: ORCA
Comic book: i dunno, Maus was pretty good
Cereal: hot oatmeal or farina.
Website: flickr.com
Cartoon: anything on adult swim

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: yes, guitar
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: not really, except when I’m sleeping maybe
Like to sing?: all the time
Have a job?: yes
Have a cell phone?: yes
Like to play sports?: yes but i suck at sports
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes
Have a crush on someone?: yes
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: no
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: no, they’re on the lawn
Have any special talents/skills?: lots, whaddya need?
Excercise daily?: a little, mostly walking
Like school?: yes, getting a master’s degree

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: yes, i think i have, but why, for God’s sake, WHY!?!
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: ow
Speak any other languages?: rudimentary Spanish
Go a day without food?: not really
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: 36 is the record
Read music, not just tabs?: a bit
Roll your tongue?: no
Eat a whole pizza?: rather not

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?: can’t recall, don’t need to anymore
Cried to get out of trouble?: probably
Gotten lost in your city?: haha yes
Seen a shooting star?: yes, and I shot some myself, but don’t worry I missed
Been to any other countries besides the united states?: a bunch
Had a serious surgery?: no, all surgery is serious. Ever heard of a “funny” surgery?
Stolen something important to someone else?: yes, but my needs are more important.
Solved a rubiks cube?: no, but rubiks cube has solved me.
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: don’t wear any, nudge, wink.
Cried over a girl?: daily.
Cried over a boy?: and then handed him a towel.
Kissed a random stranger?: yes, that was hot!
Hugged a random stranger?: ew, gross!
Been in a fist fight?: yes, the fist won.
Been arrested?: no, ah, that’s my story and I’m sticking to it.
Done drugs?: ahem.
Done alcohol: … or maybe, alcohol does me?! shit, used that one alreday.
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: milk comes out of my nose already, it’s a dispenser, need some?
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: no, that’s a douchy thing to do! I’ll try it on Monday
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: durrr, no!
Swore at your parents?: whenever we talk. “Damn you mother! Stop putting hats on me!”
Been to warped tour?: no, Lollapalooza baby!
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: hm, don’t think so. That’s mean.
Been in love?: yes i am
Been close to love?: thought so several times.
Been to a casino?: wanna bet?
Ran over an animal and killed it?: don’t know if it died. God i hope so, quickly. wait, you said “animal,” right? ok.
Broken a bone?: no. want one?
Gotten stitches?: no, I don’t sew.
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?: No, I use a glock.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: blech.
Made homemade muffins?: no, but I like to butter them though.
Bitten someone?: uh huh. bite!
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: yes/yes … EuroDisney here I come! psych!
More than 5 times?: yes, in one day. i got lost in the parking lot.
Been to niagra falls?: yeah but I forgot my barrel
Burped in someones face?: yeah, probably, volunteers welcome
Gotten the chicken pox?: Oh my, yes. I was 21. Worst case ever. Seriously.

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: yesterday
Gone to the bathroom: i feel the urge
Saw a movie in theaters: last week, but i saw it in one theater.
Read a book: day before yesterday
Had a snow day: it’s been years
Had a party: my birthday in May
Had a slumber party: every night … with my girlfriend
Made fun of someone: constantly
Tripped in front of someone: DiiiiiiiiiiCK!
Went to the grocery store: couple days ago. bought meat.
Gotten sick: called in w/ a sinus infection headache yesterday
Cursed: not me. FUCK NO!

PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables: tomatoes! They’re both! (?)
Black/white: shades of gray
Lights on/lights off: for what?
TV/movie: movie on TV
Car/truck: goose/duck
Body spray/lotion: lube
Cash/check: bankcard
Pillows/blankets: both
Headache/stomach ache: both, often
Paint/charcoal: paint
chinese food/mexican food: hungry again in 30 min./farting a lot
Summer/winter: swintmer
Snow/rain: SNOW!!!
Fog/misty: OOOOeeeeeeeoooooo
Rock/rap: Walk This Way!!
Meat/vegetarian: Omnivorian
Boy/girl: Woman
Chocolate/vanilla: Mint Choc. chip
Sprinkles/icing: need both
Cake/pie: ca…. pi …… caaa …. CAN’T DECIDE!!!
French toast/french fries: french fries
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries, God it’s like Sophie’s Choice!
Ocean/swimming pool: oh, man! … depends
Hugs/kisses: both
Cookies/muffins: muffin tops!
p33n/bewbz: p33n btween bewbz
Wallet/pocket: wallet, in pocket
Window/door: ceiling/floor
Emo/goth: uh….
Pink/purple: it changes color
Cat/dog: no, thanks, just had the cake and muffins
Long sleeve/short sleeve: long!
Pants/shorts: shorts w/ long sleeves!
Winter break/spring break: coffee break
Spring/autumn: hm … spring
Clouds/clear sky: clear sky
Moon/mars: mars … for spring break?

FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?: several
What are their names?: bob, bruce, beau, bernice, benny, beatrix, randolph
Do you have a best friend?: sure, several
Have you ever liked one of your friends?: i like all of my friends … oh … you mean … *blush*
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: hm? why, do you have more …?
Have you ever lost a friend?: yeah, found him by the funnel cake
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: see above
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?: no. yes. whatever.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?: been their friend!
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: hm … gotten me a job?
Do you miss any of your old friends?: no, they’re just old, not gone
What friend have you known the longest?: T.V.
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?: probably, but I was young and needed the money
If so, what is it?: ****** in the ******* with ***** *****. God, it’s great to get that off my chest!
How often do you spend time with your friends?: Often. OFTEN!!!
Do any of your friends drive?: any!
Has a friend of yours ever died?: no! why? who died? was it Bob?! Oh my God!!! BOB!!!! NOOOOOOO!!!!
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?: dumped stuff on people’s lawn?
What do you think your friends think of you?: they must think I’m a super-cool dude.

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?: yes, didn’t you ask that already?
If you have, with who?: with Gabrielle!
Are you single?: no
Are you in a relationship?: yes
If so, for how long?: around a year +
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: or two or three …. rrrowwwrrr
What is your idea of the best date?: she pays
What was your first kiss like?: was nervous, excited, the anticipation … the moment …
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: hm, don’t remember
Do you think love is a load of shit?: it’s a diaper full of hearts and flowers
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?: having sex with the opposite sex?
Have you ever been dumped?: sniff **
Have you ever dumped someone?: no, just stopped calling them back.

WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers: dippers
Hat: doop
Hard: pocky
Free: space
Space: dog
Taste: race
Good charlotte: harlot
Red: bed
Deep: impact!
Heart: f …. disease
Cord: short
Cheese: rake
Rain: cat, no, bird.
Work: jerk
Pedal: mettle
Head: metal
Bed: now
Fluff: feather
Hardcore: poop!
Race: run
Knife: white, butter
Jump: up!

I….
am: Atom
want: breakfast, then do work
need: see above
crave: coffee
love: music
hate: … um, potholes? no, tired feeling from not enough sleep
did: it!
feel: good.
miss: behaving!
am annoyed by: quite a bit actually
would rather: be sailing
am tired of: this long survey
will always: be myself

SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?: electronic-mood-core
What time is it now?: 11:01
What day is it?: Saturday
Whens the last time you called someone?: She called me, a few minutes ago
How much money do you have right now?: none of your beeswax
Are you hungry?: yes, i just told you
Whatcha doin?: this friggin survey
Do you like parades?: sure
Do you like the moon?: love it!
What are you going to do when youre done with this?: apparently, go to the moon to have muffins
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?: wouldn’t you like to know
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: thought-typing
Have you ever had a picnic?: yeah and so did the ants!
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?: what’s a “skip-it”?
What about sock em boppers?: no, i only had bock me soppers
Are you wearing any socks right now?: yes, pervert!

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?: how am I funny? do I amuse you?
pretty?: beautiful
sarcastic?: yeah, right, sure , okay.
lazy?: never, of course I’m not la.. whatever.
hyper: NO! NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!
friendly?: shut up.
evil?: MUAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA!
smart?: I don’t like to toot my own horn. But, toot.
strong?: Wuss.
talented?: certainly.
dorky?: According to my girlfriend, “Dork!”

The paisan princess
in her little room
with big bed overhead
perching prettily
among the bedclothes and baubles
vigilant against vexing vermin:
bugs, ghosts, and dissed-possessions
and macabre movie memories
until she runs next door
to sleeping soundly softly sister
and succumbs to dreams of me.

Gabby’s birthday pics online here.